What's Wrong with You??

Anhedonia is overtaking me. Is it age or am I growing numb to life?
Life has become so surreal that sometimes I feel that the conscious state overlaps with the subconscious state. Am I truly awake? Are the things that are happening around me real or are they just a fragment of my imagination?

I feel I'm letting life pass me by too easily. I am procrastinating too many things. So little time, so many things to do. And yet I'm letting time get the better of me.

Maybe God is telling me to rethink the reason for my existence, the true purpose of why I am who I am and why I am where I am...

Does the kind of work I do define who I am? Does my geneaology define who I am?

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Went shopping for my offspring today. So many things to buy... cot, tiny clothes, tiny mittens, tiny shoes blah blah blah...

Just realised how real this whole experience is becoming... he is coming whether I am ready for not.

Gasp. Another turning point in my life.