It's been one year and yet again I am here penning my thoughts after filling up the exact same form that I did a year ago.
The sense of uncertainty is like
deja vu. Except that this time, there were also feelings of betrayl, disillusionment and bewilderment.
"Grinding the mill."
...
"You are not bad. Just
not good enough."
...
It is simply amazing how easy it is to be taken for granted. And how easy it is to brush off whatever work or dedication someone has put in as something that is to be
expected.
Some have warned me about this possible ending. Maybe I was just being too naive. Maybe I lacked insight or refused to believe the inevitable.
What is the big picture? I honestly still cannot see it. Maybe I have to be
out of the picture to see it...