Feeling old
Age is really catching up with me. As I move on from one phase of life to another, the increase in the number of roles I have to play start to make me realise I have moved on to become an "uncle".
Everyday when I come home and carry Elijah in my arms, I reflect about my own life. What I have done and what is going to happen from this day on. Haven't been doing much reflection for a long time. I'm more like a bouy in the ocean. Bobbing along... bob bob bob...
Everything has changed. I now qualify for Father's Day celebrations. I have moved from the category of married personnel to married with kids personnel. It's no longer just about me. When I go on call, I miss one more person in my life.
It's mind boggling. I never knew that just carrying him in my arms was so important, that I would pull myself away from doing other so-called important things just to do that at least once a day.
Only now do I understand in as much as my limited mind can fathom how God enjoys our daily walk and communion with Him, and how unappreciative and ungrateful we are, to give up this time for other so-called important things.
God misses us when we go missing.
Everyday when I come home and carry Elijah in my arms, I reflect about my own life. What I have done and what is going to happen from this day on. Haven't been doing much reflection for a long time. I'm more like a bouy in the ocean. Bobbing along... bob bob bob...
Everything has changed. I now qualify for Father's Day celebrations. I have moved from the category of married personnel to married with kids personnel. It's no longer just about me. When I go on call, I miss one more person in my life.
It's mind boggling. I never knew that just carrying him in my arms was so important, that I would pull myself away from doing other so-called important things just to do that at least once a day.
Only now do I understand in as much as my limited mind can fathom how God enjoys our daily walk and communion with Him, and how unappreciative and ungrateful we are, to give up this time for other so-called important things.
God misses us when we go missing.
wow! v pastoral like ... v insightful... can start writing your own devotional book....
btw, was i was staring into your beloved son pictures..... ermmmmm what is his chinese name ah?
chen xiao wei? chen wei xiao? or juz chen wei......
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seed |
Sat Jun 04, 08:38:00 am GMT+8